Happy Birthday Baby Boy!

Wow! I do not even really know where or how to begin this post. Honestly, I have been dreading this day for quite some time and I am really not even totally sure why it bothers me this much. On this day, at 7:30am, 4 years ago, my life changed forever...for the better, of course. That was the day my little Boog came out to face the world, all whopping 6lbs. 14oz. and 19" of him. Let me tell you, he was a little booger indeed. I knew on that day that there was something very special about this child. The child that would totally bring our little family together. He is a part of all of us, what holds us together in a sense. It was love at first sight for sure. He had me from the beginning.


All of you who "know" us, know he didn't stay tiny for long. By the time he was a few months old, he was quite the little chunk. Such a sweet baby boy with a budding personality.

At 2, he was such a joy to be around. He was my blonde haired beauty. We loved his hair and could not bring ourselves to go near it with scissors. He was really starting to become "Daddy's Boy" by now, still clinging to Mommy though too.
By 3, Daddy could do no wrong. He wanted to be with Daddy no matter what. He was Daddy's main helper, his shadow and his best friend. Where has the blonde baby boy gone? This year would change his life forever. This is the year he would become a big brother. I will not lie, I had my doubts. He would talk about the baby when he wanted to. He said no, he did not want to be a big brother and that the baby could live with someone else. I was fearful that my baby would be forever changed, scarred in some way, his childhood ruined. This year, his personality really started to shine through. He became more outspoken, not as shy...more outgoing, funnier, quite the character. He became the life of the party.My, look how he has changed this year...3 was a big year. He lost his baby of the house status, becoming a big brother, started going into his music classes alone, started going into (and enjoying) kid's church on his own. Daddy is his best friend but over the last month, Mommy has moved back into his favorite person list, not really that I ever left, I think I just had to share the spotlight for a while. He really loves his friends and cannot wait to see them. He loves play dates but still really enjoys playing alone. Wow, he has grown up so much this last year. He is the most fantastic big brother ever. We could not have asked for that transition to go more smoothly. He absolutely LOVES his baby brother. This child is sweet, loving, caring, gentle and you just would not believe how funny he is. He is super smart too. Do I even need to add that he is absolutely gorgeous to boot?! Yea, I didn't think so...
His personality really shines through in everything he does. You cannot look at him without smiling and you cannot know him without loving him. He is quite the people pleaser too. Mr. Funnyman, always putting on a show.

He adores (most of the time) his older brother...

and his sister too. He has such a different relationship with each of them.

My beautiful little boy told me just last night that he still did not want to turn 4 years old. In a way, it just breaks my heart because I do not want him to turn 4 years old either. So much changes when they turn 4, somehow they seem more grown up and I think he knows that. Soon, he will be off to pre-school, then kindergarten and....I just do not know if my heart can take it. Of course deep down these are really happy feelings and a happy time. There is just something about this child...maybe it has to do with the losses we had before, maybe it is because he is ours. I do not know, I just know I cannot explain it. I mean do not get me wrong, I love all of my children with all of my heart, with everything I am, but there is just something about this little boy that I cannot explain. I sit here in tears writing this, my baby is 4.
He is such a clown.

But he has a serious side as well. How did we get so lucky?

He is a deep thinker...

a free spirit...

he is full of love and passion...

he loves all people...
and the boy LOVES TO BREAKDANCE! He has got some moves...

This child is my heart and soul and I am just torn up that he is growing up so fast. Geez, kindergarten is really going to kill me. I am such a sappy baby. But...in my defense, there is just something about a child turning 4. I think it is the end of baby/toddler hood and the beginning of childhood. It has been all I could do to look at him for the past several weeks without just breaking down. Even his looks have changed in the last month or so, he looks so grown up to me. My baby is growing up and I do not know if I am going to be able to handle it. So, if you see me on the street and it looks as if I am about to lose it, now you know why...because my baby turned 4!