This time last year, I was sitting here in this same spot, contemplating how to begin...just like I am right this very second. Do you ever wonder where time really goes? I mean seriously wonder? Not like one day you did not have time for laundry or to sit down and take a break...I mean the weeks, months and years. They are flying by. It seems just like yesterday, I was sitting at home on the couch with my husband and very much pregnant with this amazing little person. We were making plans for the future, wondering what he would be like, trying to imagine what his personality would be. We had no idea what to expect. Little did we know, this little guy would change our lives forever.
He is amazing. I mean really truly amazing. He has a heart of gold. He can be so serious, he is caring, and he is genuine. He is hilarious. He is smart. He is loving. He is honest. He is tender hearted. He cares about people, especially his people. He is a thinker.
Time is flying. He is 5. He starts kindergarten this year! That breaks my heart. I know...I sound crazy. Trust me, I know. I do not know how I am going to handle him being away all day every day. I have spent the last 5 years with this child, 24/7. He started pre-school last fall, he goes 3 days a week for 3 hours. So for the last 8 months I have missed 9 hours a week. I am going to go from 24/7 minus 9 to full time kindergarten. I am not sure I am ready for that. I am not sure that he is ready for that. He loves his mommy and daddy. We are his best friends. In a way, he is ours.
He is beautiful, inside and out. He has a heart for people.
He says he is going to live with us forever, or until he is 62.
I love him.
He is growing up so fast. I'm not sure I like it. I see adults with their adult children. I see relationships they have. It scares me. I cannot imagine that when their children were younger that they would have felt any differently than I do about my own children. That scares me. What changes? When your children are young, they are your world, they are your everything, everything you do is for them. Why does it change? Because they are older? Does it always change? I always hear from women that their moms are their best friends. I hear from men that they hardly ever talk to their parents. That scares me. I have 3 boys. I love this child so much that sometimes it hurts. What if our relationship changes? I cannot imagine him growing up, moving out, moving on...
He's only 5. He is already 5. He is my baby. He will always be my baby.
He smiles with his whole face. You can see it in his eyes. He is a happy child.
He is an awesome big brother. He loves his baby. He looks out for his baby. He plays with his baby. He protects his baby. He wants his baby to do everything he does...most of the time. He is an awesome little brother. He looks up to his older siblings, he wants to do what they do. He thinks he is their age. He is so grown up. He is so smart.
He is awesome.
He LOVES his daddy. He wants to do everything his daddy does.
He made this birthday card for daddy last week. I cried.
Where has the time gone? My baby is growing up. I am not ready for this. I am not ready for everything to change.
Happy Birthday to the most amazing little boy I know. I love you Boog. You're the BEST!
That one made ME cry. I don't want him growing up any more than you do. Like he says though, "That's just how it works." Not that I have to be happy about it.
ReplyDeleteWhat a sweetheart! I love the pictures.
ReplyDeleteThank you for continuing to pray for Abby.