writers block...

Well, that is what I would have if I were actually a writer that is. And can you actually call it that if you think of great ideas when you lay down at night, play the whole post out in your head exactly how it should go? When you are driving down the road and wonder if you would sound like an idiot if you spoke the whole post out into your voice recorder on your phone? Maybe it is just called, "I am married with 4 children, 2 of which are under the age of 5 and require lots of attention and supervision" so I just really do not have time to sit down and write?

Any way you look at it, I have really sucked (excuse the harsh language) at keeping up with this lately. I would love to use the excuse that I have been busy, but...Well, technically I have been busy but it honestly feels like busy doing nothing, yet it is always something. Ever feel that way? You are busy and gone all of the time yet you have nothing to show for it? That is me. Maybe part of it is having 3 kids in 3 different schools in 3 different cities? Humm, that is likely a good reason. Is it that 3 days a week I take Boog to pre-school but do not come home in between dropping him off at 9 and picking him up at 12? I am still a loser, I do not feel comfortable getting too far away from the school. I will venture to the mall, which is 5-7 minutes away, Target is about the same distance and Wal-Mart is even closer. Lots of mornings, I just go to the shopping center right behind the school and sit at the Bagel Cafe and have breakfast. After that, Tutti-Frutti usually falls asleep in the car so I just find somewhere to park and either read, make phone calls, text or play on my phone while he sleeps. There is a park that is across from the school and we have sat there countless times and just messed around. Mops recently started again so I do venture to the church (probably 5 minutes away) and have some adult interaction with some really cool mommies!

I really think it feels like I have no time because of the little one. Now that he is mobile, he is into everything and I do mean everything! Oooh, let me tell you, this kid is a mess. He is quite the little character already, all whopping 20 pounds and 29 inches of him. I wonder if he is ever going to grow?!? He will be 18 months old soon, on the 27th actually. Where does the time go? He is the light of my life. He warms my heart, busy body and all. So I am pretty sure that he is one of the main reasons my free time is little to non existant these days.

I guess I really need to start taking notes so that I remember these killer topics I think of late at night. There were some good ones last week. Humm...mommy brain. Maybe I should carry around a notebook and hand write them when Tutti-Frutti is sleeping in the car and we are waiting on Boog to finish school. Now theres an idea. Can you say hand cramp?!?

Goodnight everyone.